Time is flying by...

      First I need to apologize for not posting my first blog on the 10th, which is exactly 30 days from my trip, I had everything nice and typed, but never got a chance to do it. And it would totally mess up the whole story if I had changed it to post it correctly. So, I'm sorry...

       But that explains the reason behind the post for today. How time is going by so fast and I'm finding less and less of it to get done everything I need to. Starting with my job. I do have a job, by the way, and right now I am completing my 30 days notice. I still have to finish some tasks before my last day, which will be on the 29th of this month, and here I am, writing this post.

       Moving is not an easy thing to do, even if you're going from one street to the next, let alone going to another country. There are things that need to be taken care of, like cancellation of credit cards, closing bank accounts, canceling insurance, gym membership, paying the bills so nothing is left behind, selling your car, etc... And this has been taking a lot of my time, my patience and mental health. I'm really stressed out, to put it mildly! Even when you think everything is going according to plan, you can't help but doubt, worry, and feel completely overwhelmed. And the worst of it is, that I can't seem to focus well enough. It's like I'm being held back by some really strong arms and I feel I can't move. I guess it's normal to feel this way, however I cannot wait for things to happen on their own. I gotta move my ass, finish my work (which I will as soon as I'm done writing this), make a list of things to do and go from there. Yeah, that's all!

       Easier said than done...

       What I'm really worrying about is money, and not having enough of it. The decision of leaving everything behind: my job, my car, my life, and starting over, was based solely on wanting to live close to my family and my boyfriend, and living in my country which it's what I know and what I love. It was not because I got a better job, or I made a ton of money here in the U.S and now I'm loaded and can just live off of it. No, not at all! I wish... I didn't even have enough money saved, but I know I can manage with what I have. It's just that, it's not gonna last forever, and it makes me wonder if I'll be able to get by with it... I know I will, but as much as I try to stay positive and be optimistic, reality can sink in pretty fast. And although, as you know, I'll be living with my parents and they are supporting my decision all the way, I can't help but freak out a little.

       All right, I seriously need to get back to work now. And get back to my worries and concerns. And hopefully I'll have time to post this soon...

       L